What did I just get myself into...

We are developed to be as confident as we can be, like every flower, we bloom and get pretty to the brightest. And the one who stands with stance of knowledge and beauty gets the credit, and fearaless I become.

A year and a half ago, I decided that I should be helping people out, these thinking led me into situation as such, I pursued pre-medical course for college. Everyone was like, "Wow! You must be intelligent." or like, "Really? That's a pretty good course, you should finish it." The affirmations were everywhere and it was very overwhelming just saying complicated jargons in front of the idea-less people, oh yeah, like you're talking smart. College has made its lasting impression of " Everything in DIY", nobody will help you out out of it. Just you and nobody else, I have realized that even the greatest friends can be not there always, and it's none to blame because simply, that's the way it should be. My views on my future career sometimes gets blurry because of the pressure around, and I'm no good at handling them. I failed major subject as far as twice and has to retake it.

My poor stampered ego was down at it's best. I saw my mates simply just resumed doing their things, but me? I got clumped up in the corner, sulking, what am I about to do with everything? What did I just got myself into? and worse; Am I really sure of what I'm doing? I am scared that these questions might come to find me one of these days, but I swear I just wanted the best answers. Just to have me recieving a diploma into a good university and get done with med school thereafter would be one of my happiest dreams yet to happen, and the biggest dream? to be able to help the people where I'm from by what I got and lead them to where I've been through.

Life is full of different things. Failure can never be out of there, 'cause you'll never learn if you'll never fail.